Secret to Getting off the couch

I’ve felt that deep chasm, that achey emptiness in the pit of my stomach. I have binge-watched one too many episodes of that one show on Netflix and I am -

SICK

OF

MYSELF

I mean I look at the pathetic lump on the couch and know there is so much more in me -

More to create

More to give

More to inspire

…but I’m tired. It’s my go to excuse. I’m allowed to keep sitting, keep doing nothing except filling my brain with the creations of others, because I have exhausted myself.

Doing, doing, and more doing

So now I just want to sit. But do I really? Because this doesn’t feel so good - it feels stale, it feels lethargic, and most of all - it doesn’t feel like ME!

So how can I pull myself out of this funk? How can I get the energy I need? How can I feel better?

STOP

Just stop

Breathe deeply, and again.

Turn off the external stimulus, and instead choose the silence.

Choose the peace.

Choose me.

I can feel something deep in my stomach again - but this time it is not empty. I start to feel a warmth, a connection.

By stopping the frantic questioning in my brain - stop trying to figure out how to fix things - the space gives me a greater sense of myself.

I realize the answers aren’t out “there” - they are here. Inside me. It is not about how but about…

WHY

Why do I want to give more?

Why do I feel the yearning?

Why do I need to be more than just an audience member on a couch?

Why is this so important?

I ask myself these questions but then I choose not to answer - not to engage my over-thinking brain.

I choose to FEEL

- to be - to connect to myself.

Then I ask again - why? And I let the visions come.

For me it is visions of my kids. It is thinking of how important it is for me to show them how to use their gifts - to live their lives. To show them that life isn’t lived on a couch - but lived through the gifts and passions I’ve been blessed with. How are they supposed to connect to true happiness if I can’t help teach them? How can I figure this out if I stay on the couch?

So that is my why - living my life fully to show my kids it is not only possible but it is essential!

I need to live in this awhile - absorb this - maybe even journal about this bit.

Let it REALLY sync in.

I have faith that the how will come - but it will be much like the why. A feeling, a sensation, a knowing, an electricity. So I keep living in the why, imagining the amazing feeling of being connected, living my passion so my kids are empowered to live theirs.

What will that look like?

What does it feel like?

Where will I be?

Where will my kids be?

I can see each of their faces. Hear our laughter. Feel the amazing energy! It is warm, joyous, and full!

There is so much to just live in for awhile and that amazing energy will bring the how - like a whisper or just a suggestion. But I’ll feel the electricity as soon as it is in my awareness. It may feel outlandish or surprising - but isn’t that really where the best ideas come from? Yes, I guess that’s true.

Just live in your WHY…

It’s okay - you’ve got this.